Elation(!)

Today I have absolutely no clue whatsoever why but I'm feelin elated.But tremendously nervous aty the same time.I've lost all sense and don't even know what I'm typing or why I've sat down to type in the first place.Well I listened to three back to back concerts

1)Jimi Hendrix live in Woodstock(1969)

2)Pink Floyd at Live 8(2005)

3)Pink Floyd Live in Amsterdam Rock n Roll Circus(tentatively 1972)

Boy did that get me fired up.I now have the boundless energy to conquer all my trepidations and am positively bouncing with enthusiasm.I'll do it.Who says I can't.

I've got into this sort of groove where nothing else really matters anymore.Only the 6th and the 8th of July.Thank God for providing me with such wonderful friends who lend me books at the drop of a hat(nowhere else has the comparative static portion been dealt with more effectively :P).I need them now,more than I've ever needed them before.I'm all fired up here and I'm typing with the ferocity of a starving wolf. What have I been doing all this time underestimating myself and my abilities??!!!

No one is small.Everyone has the ability to shine in his/her own way.Hah!What do I care let them criticise away.As if it effects me.As if I give two hoots.I live life on my own terms and I'm not going to change for anybody in this entire world.I'l push myself to the limit today.Its been a long time since I've done so(someone will testify :P).Today is the day.

I still remember the day of the Presidency entrance examination.On the way to the examination centre,my mother was like(I dropped her to school on the way)...

..."Don't worry or be tense now.Whatever has to happen for your good only"

To which I replied...

..."Even if the entrance test had been postponed by a month,I couldn't have been better prepared or felt more confident than I am now."

Whoa!I had actually said that.And I want to be sitting on this very chair in  front of this very keyboard,typin the same thing somewhere in mid-july.I have to.I owe it to everyone who loves me and cares for me.This is much more than any ol sytupid exam.This is a test of my integrity,my tenacity,my willingness to survive in the face of all odds and the ability to not crumble in the face of pressure and show everyone that I was fully justified in taking this grand sub ject.

11 and 12 was like a nightmare like me.An unqualified disaster.So after proving my worth and getting through to one of the best undergrad economics college in India,should I falter at the firast hurdle?I should not.For then people will smirk.They will be filled with glee,albeit sadistic.For people will be people.So when I have such a golden chance to wipe that smirk off the face of everyone who doubts me and wants me to fall into a bottomless pit and derive mirth at my tears and success at my failure,why waste it?!

Should we shout,should we scream?!

What happened to the post war dream?!

Not to worry.The post war dream is very much alive in my heart and soul